What do I want out of life?

I want to be a person with such positivity - real, honest, very seldom met positivity- and equilibrium, such a state of health and fitness - not showy, bulging muscles or preening, overly-sexualized fitness -that it makes other people uncomfortable, while drawn to me in wonder.

This is not ego. This is not about building a fan base, or, feeling special. I have met a few persons who were healthy and calm individuals, of such a nature, and, I loved them. That's all. One of them was very inwardly shiny, to the point where the sister I was studying with, at the time, told me, preparing me to meet him soon, "And, no, he is not one of the annointed. People always think he is, because ... well, you'll see." 

He actually glowed with health. I am thinking, now, that he was someone who fasted. Yes, it could have been the holy spirit, but, I think, if so, it is more that the holy spirit encouraged him to fast, either directly or indirectly; because, I have seen some who are annointed, and, they do not glow like he did. And, because, I have seen people who had a very good bit of fasting, who were very calm and much shinier people than they used to be.

I want to be able to walk like I used to, but, with more enjoyment of the journey, instead of it being a way to do something other than sit or lay and moan in pain. Instead of it being a way to work out the stress built up by pain, physical and emotional, in the hopes of being able to sleep, at least a little.

I am writing this, because, somewhere, in one of the books I was reading on health, the subject of "Why are you fat?" was brought up again, but, in a different format. Instead of saying, "What is wrong with you?" it was more, "What do you want to be right with you?"  As in, "What is your motivation - the joy you will receive out of your efforts - to change your life for the better."

Because, whether you are talking about reading the Bible or attending meetings, or, eating more salads, or, breaking up with someone abusive, or, whatever it is, no matter how likely it is that it should make your life better, you have to know it will and feel it will. Because, fear motivates in sparse spurts, in-between bouts of depression, remorse, panic or other negatives. FInd your joy, and, you can work your change.

I want to walk to the grocery store, whether it is the one approximately 1 mile away or the one that is  more like 7 miles away, to get what fresh veggies and fruits (mainly) that I need for the next few days, and, come home feeling challenged, perhaps, but, not broken. Maybe making a meal afterward, or, maybe eating some of the fruits and veggies along the way. Or, both.

Doesn't matter.

I want to do the things that "weirdos" do. Like, long-term fasting. Mono-eating. Only eating one meal a day, or, one meal every three days. Just because.

I want to walk so much and work my feet into such a properly calloused state that I won't have to worry about if my hiking boots can last 1,000 miles - which, by the way, ALL hiking boots should be able to last walking at least 10 miles a day for at least 1.5 years, so, what's that about? - because, on most days, I won't be wearing them.

This is while I am walking some long trail, mind you, and, keeping my hiking boots near me, in case of ants or running into exceedingly cooler temperatures.

But, mostly, the reason I want to be like this is so that I can get up every morning, get cleaned up, exercised, write some on my blog or book, or, paint, and, all that sort of thing; and, get my studying done, go out in service, even if it means walking to some place a good clip away; get home, get dressed, do my wage work or more studying, and/or get ready and go to the meeting. Or, maybe even walk to the meeting, throughout the day, being out in service along the way. Coming home. Going to bed at a reasonable hour of 10 p.m. or so, and, joyfully, energetically, doing it all again, the next day and the next day and every other day, until we have a different life to live.

Serving Jehovah is the greatest joy, most important work, highest motivator for change. But, it still helps to focus on the particulars of what I want out of life, how life would work, with that in mind.

What about you?

What do you want out of life? What would make you happy? Not giddy, lustful, satisfied for the moment, less sad; but, truly happy. Why don't you have it? And, how are you going to get it?

I begin (pt 5)

Today, I believe I learned a little more on why the Hilton Head Fast Metabolism Diet (or whatever it is called) had great success for many. Watch this lovely video, because, it is good for you; and, you might, then, know what I am talking about. At least, if you know what the diet is.

Taking notes from it, now:

500 calories per day for 21 days.  21 days on, 21 days off.
For 1 meal, 1 cup of vegetable.  No fat. Can be steamed
3.5 oz of animal product (grass fed, organic, dry spice if desired)  lean
1 piece of fruit.   2 x per day.   Drink a tremendous amount of water. Can have tea or coffee for breakfast.

Body uses proteins,fats, carbs to produce everything.  If you don't take in protein it will break down muscles, if you don't take in carbs it will break down whatever it can to get the carbs. if you don't take in fats, it will go after the abnormal fats.

2 days before treatment FAT LOAD  Healthy fats  coconuts avocados  nuts seeds  So blood is super rich in fats. Then cut it off completely.

This is all to change your brain

Enzyme supplementing:
West African Mango supplements
Pomegranate
Ginger
Garcinia Cambodia
Apple Cider Vinegar
 Cayenne Pepper

BIO THIN (Mercola)
On the 3 weeks off, you can't take in sugars or breads

Then THIS video

3 kinds of fat   structural, reserve, abnormal

Abnormal = not available to the body in nutritional emergency 
Obese patient will lose reserves, structural fat and only after that abnormal reserves. By then, they are usually tired, famished, and they get wrinkled and old looking.

Obese patients feel reasonably well as long as they are stationary or gaining weight.


All this reminds me of things Dr. Berg said about using high amounts of fat at the beginning of a ketogenic diet, but, not to continue using it in high quantities. It's for the same reason, to get your body to burn your fast. And, when I was doing fasting or intermittent fasting, I was losing on my abdomen, which would be considered the bank of abnormal fat. Well, one of them and the main one.

This is me wheedling things down to the simple.

Now that I am more educated, considering varying sources, I feel I can truthfully say that I'd be comfortable with a mostly raw vegan, fruit first diet that is mostly fat free. But, with some fats, at some points.

I'm not going to go into a big list of what I've been having. Instead, I'll tell you that I found out there is a noxious chemical in the tap water around here and they don't know how long that's been true (so they say), but, as I have been wretchedly ill all summer and fall, I will assume it happened in the early to mid-Spring.

Anyway, I am still doing the noon-8 p.m. limit on when to eat. This is three days of it, including Saturday, which was the day I weighed in the morning.  I've been eating fruit and veggies, some, but, have not been dieting.

I didn't drink coffee Saturday, then not until Sunday evening, and, I drank one cup (much almond and coconut milk) around noon today.

I think I am ready to go back to the book.

Have a lovely day!

Notes on eating more veggies/starches (starting Saturday, Sept, 15)

Sat  9-15-18:   I have run into things by Dr. McDougall (sp?), both pros and cons, a significant portion of my life.  Up until recently, I never heard anything said about him and his ways that made me want to give them a try, because, the having so many starches per day plus a salad didn't used to be feasible most of the year, and, then, when I was older and able to do so, grains seemed to be making me ill.

I showed you a video, a couple of blog posts back, showing the basic idea on how to eat the way he is talking about while losing weight. It does not involved much grains or beans. But, also, in thinking about it, I started to wonder if 1) when I eat beans and get a rash, if it isn't simply because I need to do the low fodmap diet and/or allergy rotation diet, for a while, and, then things would calm down; or, 2) if the rash I get when I eat beans or eat more carbs might not, in point of fact, be a symptom of intense detoxification.

I'm not ready to take a chance that #2 is the correct one, because, if the detox symptoms are that strong, I want to slow that process down, anyway. But, I am quite willing to get back into eating a lot more veggies and little to no meat,  with some grains and little to no oil, no dairy, mostly minimally processed foods or not processed foods, and, then work my way into either a super long fast or the low fodmap diet (or a combination of both), which would culminate in a refeeding/retesting, that leads into a basic rotation diet.

In that light, today, I got various good veggies (broccoli crown, cauliflower, Brussels sprouts, baby kale, zucchini), some fruit (strawberries, mandarin oranges, Gala apples), and some grains (pearl barley, millet, quinoa, buckwheat groats).  Not everything I got, outside of these things, was a perfect fit for the McDougall idea,  nor is everything I already have  But, it's a start and it will be better than what I have been doing this last month.

For lunch, maybe dinner, we had Lime Chili Ramen with roasted cauliflower, green pepper and chicken thigh lightly basted in Asian Barbecue Sauce (that's what the bottle says).  It was pretty good and definitely filling.  Pretty sure it was light on the calories and we both agreed (me and my son) that the chicken could have been left out, maybe replaced with  mushrooms.  It was easy to make, tasty and I feel better about life for having  eaten it.

Oh, there were also some baby kale, parsley and collard greens in there, because, I chopped up salad stuff  earlier, which was mostly those things, and, then I threw some into the bowls before I poured the hot water in.

So, today is the first day of my trying to follow McDougall's advice, though I will not be eating beans any time soon. Well, maybe the garbanzo beans I bought a can of, but, not the rest. And, also, of course, I am going to be following his advice, otherwise, to the extent that I believe it will benefit me and veering off sharply in whatever direction I need to, to get my body under control. But, outside of the beans and the amount of the starches suggested (in general) his advice sounds alright. And, maybe the beans and the amount of starches I can handle will change later.

Have a lovely day!


https://www.drmcdougall.com/