I shouldn't have to

 I shouldn't have to remind you of what you witnessed
Nor to give you sordid details of what hurts in every aspect
I shouldn't have to keep asking for your attention
Nor to be important enough for your consideration
I shouldn't have to scream out my pain to be heard
Nor should I be told I am crazy when it happens 
I shouldn't have to accuse you or excuse me
Nor should I feel left unheard as a lifelong pain
I shouldn't have to be mean to you 
Nor mean to myself, just to get you to see me
I've told you some of what has occured, who I am
This was an invitation to a conversation, for you
Because, you claim your occupation is to love even me.